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stellarwind) wrote2007-10-24 03:42 am
stellarwind) wrote2007-10-24 03:42 am
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So yeah.
My mood is on a continuing downward spiral ever since yesterday evening.
I'm not sure what triggered it to be honest. I just know that I've been feeling worse and worse. De-energized, uninspired, unmotivated, the whole shebang. I can't seem to be capable of diverting my attention to dealing with things I actually need to deal with (like the whole psychometric madness and particularly its mathematical portion, which is pwning my soul with a spatula) either, which is really bad.
I can't afford to be depressed right now, damnit. But I can't seem to even get myself motivated to motivate myself to get out of this state. Lack of life on the internets lately doesn't help either.
And the art-block which strikes back at phenomenal power levels and my inability to concentrate on stuff for too long are slowly draining me even more. I feel kinda overwhelmed and overloaded - but I don't have the right to, really.
I mean it's not as if I'm really DOING anything.
... Fuck it.
I'll be fine. Eventually. I just hope it won't be TOO long of an 'eventually'.
I'm not sure what triggered it to be honest. I just know that I've been feeling worse and worse. De-energized, uninspired, unmotivated, the whole shebang. I can't seem to be capable of diverting my attention to dealing with things I actually need to deal with (like the whole psychometric madness and particularly its mathematical portion, which is pwning my soul with a spatula) either, which is really bad.
I can't afford to be depressed right now, damnit. But I can't seem to even get myself motivated to motivate myself to get out of this state. Lack of life on the internets lately doesn't help either.
And the art-block which strikes back at phenomenal power levels and my inability to concentrate on stuff for too long are slowly draining me even more. I feel kinda overwhelmed and overloaded - but I don't have the right to, really.
I mean it's not as if I'm really DOING anything.
... Fuck it.
I'll be fine. Eventually. I just hope it won't be TOO long of an 'eventually'.
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This week has being going downhill from downhill for me (too). To the point I started giving up today.
There isnt much to do with depression.
Astrology-ers might say its because of the precise alignment of Jupiter's spot absorbing too much distant starlight combined with eating cherries and milk before its zenith. Or something.
Here. My avatar will make you better.
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