6.6.06 - Daemonic Date indeed, ain't it? ^_^

If this was a perfect world, I'd probably be home, curled up in a feather blanket with someone amazing who'd love me just as much as I'd love her for who I am (and vice versa)with candles and relaxing instrumental music in the background, while rain is falling outside (possibly coupled with a thunderstorm, but that may be a bit too much to ask). Or walking along a beach at sunset/lying on a grassy hill under a tree gazing up at a clear night sky, tracing star patterns and having a random, relaxing conversation with aformentioned person, who doesn't even exist and probably never will, because this isn't a perfect world, never have been and never will be.

But a strange lifeform can dream, and it definitely feels like the sort of things I'd want to do after a day like today. And a BLOODY LONG day it was. X_X

Work is hectic lately. A LOT of parts to repair have gathered up on our tables in the last few weeks and now we're catching up on a LOT of workload in the department. Barely had any time to breathe at all lately. And we haven't been a lot of people (various people sick, others taking days off randomly... Leaving me alone with a new person who is still in process of getting familiarized and authorized with everything and one or two more people to work with, barely. Barely enough for anything. -_-

And ugh, the weather's a bloody nightmare. WAY too hot. It's not much of a bother when we're actually inside the department working (blessed be air conditioning!) but when we're occasionally warping from one of our mini-departments to another or going out into the sun, it burninates people to TEH EXTREME. >.> <.< >.> <.<

A few of the people are leaving soon, including (much to my dismay) my direct superior, the person in charge of my department - he's one amazing person, always helping people and being there for them as much as he can. Thankfully, he's probably only leaving at the end of this year, and so I'm only going to have three or two months with his second (who will be inheriting his job and is a bloody-minded workaholic that I sometimes really wish I could throw something large and heavy at) hanging over me before I'm out of here.

9 months to FREEDOM. >.>

~*~

I'm mostly over the whole issue with her right now. I still feel awfully lonely and hollow at rare times, and I still do miss the good times I had with her (and the closeness that we shared, something that was severed as soon as we broke up. I found out by my own means that she cut contact with me just as much as I've cut contact with her, and for the most part, I'm glad that she did. A part of me still wishes that maybe someday she'll try and contact me someday, but most of me thinks that it's a good thing that she erased me from her life as fully as I have.

I just wish that I could also stop missing her. Silly me... ¬¬;

One thing that I found out about myself after the whole thing ended was that it seems that now, the company of people online doesn't seem to be enough for me anymore. It's good to have them around, yeah, but it's not like I can turn for them to support on /everything/ that crashes on my messed up psyche o'doom - reality has issues and people can't always be there for each other, even when you need them the most.

It's still better than nothing, though.

~*~

Also, I'm finally getting myself a laptop (which should be arriving sometime next week, or possibly the week after, hopefully sooner). ^_^ It wasn't too expensive, and the tech specs are awesome - just perfect for what I need. It was almost too good to be true when we found it. ^^

Mmmm... Yeah, I'm rambling. Best fire this entry away.

End time: 20:10. Almost 25 minutes of typing, good bloody grief. o_o