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Where the hell has my inspiration gone?
Jan. 2nd, 2007 08:45 pmIt seems to have decided to take a nice long break with no plans on returning anytime soon.
I find myself unable to draw anything decent, write anything decent... Hell, do anything mildly creative. Except for slightly synchronize with my guitar, and even so, not as well as I do usually.
I'd like to blame it on my current health (which isn't at 100% effectivity - the fever's gone but I still have bouts of dizziness, somewhat reduced apetite, wierd 'plugging' in my ears every once in a while and general wierd feeling that rather characterizes a still-unhealthy Stel.) but I know that's only part of it - I've gotten into this creativity block before I woke up this Saturday with a fever. I'd like to blame it on running out of ideas and needing new input - but I don't feel like reading anything.
Infact, I don't feel like *anything*.
Maybe try to squeeze a melody or two out of my guitar before I go mad.
I'm just feeling awfully drained again. I've been in this mood before, and lately it feels I'm falling into it way too much. And probably ranted about it too much, making a bloody mountain range out of a (relative) anthill. I think the sad thing is that I should probably be used to it by now. And yet, It infuriates me -I still have ideas. I still have thoughts. They still wish to burst out. They just CAN'T. X_X I could have a scene flowing seamlessly in my mind, but when I try to write it it looks like an elephant sat on it. I could have a perfect little mental image, but the lines go all wrong... You get the picture.
... I'm sorry. I'm just losing it. No big deal.
We now return to our regularily scheduled spam.
I find myself unable to draw anything decent, write anything decent... Hell, do anything mildly creative. Except for slightly synchronize with my guitar, and even so, not as well as I do usually.
I'd like to blame it on my current health (which isn't at 100% effectivity - the fever's gone but I still have bouts of dizziness, somewhat reduced apetite, wierd 'plugging' in my ears every once in a while and general wierd feeling that rather characterizes a still-unhealthy Stel.) but I know that's only part of it - I've gotten into this creativity block before I woke up this Saturday with a fever. I'd like to blame it on running out of ideas and needing new input - but I don't feel like reading anything.
Infact, I don't feel like *anything*.
Maybe try to squeeze a melody or two out of my guitar before I go mad.
I'm just feeling awfully drained again. I've been in this mood before, and lately it feels I'm falling into it way too much. And probably ranted about it too much, making a bloody mountain range out of a (relative) anthill. I think the sad thing is that I should probably be used to it by now. And yet, It infuriates me -I still have ideas. I still have thoughts. They still wish to burst out. They just CAN'T. X_X I could have a scene flowing seamlessly in my mind, but when I try to write it it looks like an elephant sat on it. I could have a perfect little mental image, but the lines go all wrong... You get the picture.
... I'm sorry. I'm just losing it. No big deal.
We now return to our regularily scheduled spam.
