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stellarwindMy mood is on a continuing downward spiral ever since yesterday evening.
I'm not sure what triggered it to be honest. I just know that I've been feeling worse and worse. De-energized, uninspired, unmotivated, the whole shebang. I can't seem to be capable of diverting my attention to dealing with things I actually need to deal with (like the whole psychometric madness and particularly its mathematical portion, which is pwning my soul with a spatula) either, which is really bad.
I can't afford to be depressed right now, damnit. But I can't seem to even get myself motivated to motivate myself to get out of this state. Lack of life on the internets lately doesn't help either.
And the art-block which strikes back at phenomenal power levels and my inability to concentrate on stuff for too long are slowly draining me even more. I feel kinda overwhelmed and overloaded - but I don't have the right to, really.
I mean it's not as if I'm really DOING anything.
... Fuck it.
I'll be fine. Eventually. I just hope it won't be TOO long of an 'eventually'.
I'm not sure what triggered it to be honest. I just know that I've been feeling worse and worse. De-energized, uninspired, unmotivated, the whole shebang. I can't seem to be capable of diverting my attention to dealing with things I actually need to deal with (like the whole psychometric madness and particularly its mathematical portion, which is pwning my soul with a spatula) either, which is really bad.
I can't afford to be depressed right now, damnit. But I can't seem to even get myself motivated to motivate myself to get out of this state. Lack of life on the internets lately doesn't help either.
And the art-block which strikes back at phenomenal power levels and my inability to concentrate on stuff for too long are slowly draining me even more. I feel kinda overwhelmed and overloaded - but I don't have the right to, really.
I mean it's not as if I'm really DOING anything.
... Fuck it.
I'll be fine. Eventually. I just hope it won't be TOO long of an 'eventually'.
