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It's really not easy to study for exams when your heart is still in pain.

But I do it anyway, since there really is little choice on the matter.

Yay for the thousands of little ways in which the human body can turn on itself and completely EFF! itself over through single point mutations.
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I have no adequate way to describe how I'm feeling right now. But I can say one thing, it's not fun.

I feel... Hollow. Alone, even though I know I'm not - and even that knowledge feels hollow.

But I can't seem to help it.

This happens quite a bit lately. Not all the time - it comes and goes, fluctuates like crazy. I've been feeling this more and more lately, though... Especially at nights. This is quite a terrible timing for me to feel this way, too - with an exam period bearing down on me and assignments to do and whatnot. And yet...

sigh.

Yeah. I don't really know what the purpose of this entry is, really. I guess I'm just venting.
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I am once again single. I have little to say about it.

I have little to say about anything.

That is all.
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Synthesis. Distortion. Dissipation.
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Today has been moodswing central for me. Been alternating between epic blah and epic win for hours, and now it's rather back to epic blah.

I don't know what a hell's going on either.
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Ever since I woke up this morning (if you can call four-something AM morning), I've been feeling ridiculously distorted for a lack of better definition. Too awake to go back to sleep, too brain-warped to concentrate on anything that requires brain power.

Life is funny like that.

I've been mostly in a great mood in the past few weeks. I have no IDEA what could have possibly triggered -this-.

I'll probably be fine in a bit.
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Being suddenly washed over by a massive wave of stress and blah that makes you decide to get off the computer for your own good, then curling up in bed and falling asleep even though you slept through the day the day before... is not fun.

I feel a bit better now. For now.
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Just finished watching Stellvia. Awesome series. Not quite what I normally watch, but still enjoyable. ^^

Except now I feel... odd. And I don't think I know why.

...

Jul. 26th, 2009 03:18 am
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It's that time again. Fucking moodswings.

I need to take my mind off things. Or just to take off my mind. Whichever comes first.

...

May. 25th, 2009 06:16 am
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That is all.
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At a very inconvenient time. x-x

sigh.

Jan. 16th, 2009 12:46 pm
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Ironic, how the first dream I have after months of not dreaming anything at all is of the sort I really didn't want to have.
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I would appreciate it if you let me sleep every once in a while. Really.
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Energy levels hitting negative infinity. Fluctuations at maximum. And I need to shove myself on an effing bus soon, too.

Dear universe. You fail. Please cease existing.
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... I think that inexplicable tiredness and violent mood swings go hand in hand.
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I need -something- and frell if I know what it is.
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Entropy


...And let the rest of the galaxy burn. I don't care anymore. ~ Ambassador Londo Mollari, Babylon 5.

I sympathize, my fan-haired friend. I truly sympathize.

I've gone beyond negativity to apathy. I feel -nothing-. At all. About anything.

And the funny thing is that I'm not sure if that is a bad thing.

... Huh.

Oct. 24th, 2008 05:20 pm
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I'm feeling oddly drained for some reason. I slept well tonight, so I should have no excuse for feeling like something absorbed all my energy.

... I can't sleep yet, either, but I can't seem to muster enough energy/concentration to do anything productive or otherwise.

And it's been like this for the greater part of the day.

I think I need a recharge.
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One moment I'm roffling, the next moment my mood is completely shot to hell and back.

Rinse and fucking repeat.

Ugh. I need portal technology.

On a completely irrelevant side note, my driving instructor changed cars. Now he has a Skoda Fabia. I'm not sure if I want to drive that thing or eat it.

Blargh.

Mar. 25th, 2008 08:55 pm
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Haven't been sleeping too well in the past while, though what the cause may be, I know not.

Which isn't good when you're trying to slightly adjust your sleep schedule. I have a few things coming up in this and next week that require some form of diurnalism.

It's this driving test next Monday. I -really- want to pass the buggered thing. I'm sick and tired of this whole driving lesson schtick - It's been going on for FAR too long and quite frankly, I know how to operate a vehicle pretty damn well by this point. It's just stress. unnecessary fucking stress.

To add insult to injury, I have some more arrangements to handle re: University. Preliminary payments, lol. So I get to deal with banks and post offices. MY FAVORITE PLACES IN THE WHOLE WIDE FUCKING WORLD TO BE. YAY.

Kill them ALL with fire. ALL OF THEM.

Or better yet. Disfigure them with a poison-tipped Mailbox.

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